Complications

So one thing I haven't mentioned yet is that I change my mind regularly. So my blog wont look the same for long. I like changing it up!

Life as a teen sucks sometimes, I mean you have to keep your parents happy, do well in school, find out what you want to be one day( which isn't as easy as it seems). It all gets to be a bit much sometimes...

do this
and that
be like this
aim at that

give it your all
don't give up
why did you fall?
get up!

why aren't you like her?
work harder
do better
go faster

its all up to you
your life
what are you going to do?

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Hope you all had an amazing valentines day, enjoy march!
Love
E-bitch

Bad Day much?

How can it be?
every one surrounding my soul
Is as happy as can be
yet I stand here
broken and batted

Things torn apart
In this life that is mine
And an aching heart
shouting for some relief

No end in sight
All I can see
Is yet another fight

Lord help me
Set me free

before I jump..

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So my day started with my alarm going off way to early meaning when i actually had to wake up it felt like I only had an hour of sleep. Then my sister had a go at making a shitty start even worse.(she got it right). on the way to school my boyfriend and I had a fight over the phone. At school the teachers decided that today was the perfect day to shout and take their frustrations out on the class. On the way home my mom just had to start a fight about my school marks not being good enough.

So i guess it wasn't exactly the 'best' day ever.

Well that's me...
love E-bitch

Awesome Random Photo's

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I love butterflies... Their so colourful and pretty and I think the reason why I love them so much is because I wish that I could fly

I want a tattoo of a Rose either on my foot or my thigh. I love roses they make me smile and the smell of a rose drives me mad! Its just that amazing 

I love, love! Don't get me wrong its frustrating and hard! But it will always be there... And it requires constant attention but somehow... If its true... It will come out stronger and make you happier. I am lucky to have this kind of love. And people may call me crazy or think that it wont last but we made it to a year and 11 months.and we will have many more. With hard work, love and trust I'm sure that all things will work out...

I love hot bodies! =P

I hate bullshit and lies! I get irritated really quickly and my stupid blackberry is so damn slow that I'm surprised that it hasn't met my wall yet!

Ahhh friends! They make your day worthwhile and fun! I have one really close friend. Dark Rain which you all have met before. She says hello by the way!

Now you all know me a little better! I'm just some random girl! Who wants to rule the world one day

Love E-bitch

Lovers Greeting

Love, Hate

I love your touch

I hate the emptiness when it’s gone

Love your kiss

Hate your “mwah’s” over bbm

Love your hugs

Hate loneliness after you’ve said goodbye

Love the cute tickle fights

Hate the screaming matches

I love your smile

And hate your tears

Can’t go without hearing your voice

But will live an eternity without the pain

I love you

Hate spending time apart

I love you

And I hate... nothing when you’re near

Life is always easier when you have someone to share it with. It helps to have someone to talk to, share secrets with, and laugh with. Just to have someone that will be there for you no matter what. Sometimes it’s a boyfriend, fiancé or husband other times it’s a really good friend I’m fortunate enough to have both! And if it wasn’t for them I wouldn’t be as happy go lucky as I am! They are my support system, everyone needs a person to trust and rely on. Unfortunately people that are trustworthy and loyal aren’t always easy to find. But they’re out there.... somewhere

I heard something really amazing the other day....

Love doesn’t hurt!

Breakups hurt,

Cheaters hurt,

Dickheads, fucktards, whores and sluts hurt.

Love conquers all.

If it hurts then either you’re not doing it right or it’s not love

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So I know I'm a little late, but... HAPPY FREAKING NEW YEAR! 

2012 is here and I'm going to rock it! 

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Just to let you know things with my sister got better then worse and now better again! Constant ups and downs! uuuuggggg!!! 

Life's a bitch 

Then you die!

So fuck this shit

And lets get high!

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That's it from me for now!

Love E-bitch

Breath...

Siblings!

Me and my silly Little sister had yet another fight... I dont usualy blog about it... But here goes!
Ever had someone in your life that just has a way to get under your skin? They do the exact things you hate, just because they know it irritates you!? Ag... Those people suck!

Stupid Buterflies

That butterfly feeling...
Not the normal one....
Those angry mutated buterflies,
With that thurst for revenge.

They consume all rational thoughts...
One thing...
Even the tiniest
sets off an atom bomb in your mind!

then your mouth starts
yelling and cursing...
They react and you keep going
the bomb settles after one thing said too much

And no one is happy.
Those butterflies hide...
Seek shelter
and wait...

Somehow writing a poem calms me... I hope one day I can hire an exterminator for my mutant butterflies

I am A big fan of this saying...

Because, you know what! We are young! You only live once! Who gives a fuck what others think and who cares if its dangerous, wrong or even too good to be true! Just do it! Why not? If you fall and get a few scratches just get up... And either destroy all evidence that you tried, or think of another way to do it better!

Love... E-bitch!

Random....

Hi Again!

GRADE 11 is done! And I am Finaly 18!!!!!!!!!! Wow, time has just gone by so fast! next year is matric and Im so scared! I want to study psycology but my parents dont realy get it! Ag!!! I understand that if I study BA psycology and dont get my Masters degree I wont be able to do much but what am I suposed to do? I want to help people! I want to know how the human brain works! If only they would listen! But hay! I have organised that the guy from the university comes to talk to us so that we can discuss all the posible solutions or a way to meet in the midle! I guess I'll just have to wait and see...

Lets have some fun!!!
my new Poll is about Schizophrenia.. lets see how Smart you guys are!

Regret

Staring at the emptyness of the night
seeing the moon
thinking of you,
longing for your forgiveness

Picturing your broken heart,
knowing I set it alight
feeling the knife in your back
tasting your tears

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love remains
I know I must have killed it
but my love still remains

My actions cant be explained
maybe It was just that time of the mounth
but one thing I know for sure...
my love never died.

EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Being a teen is hard! I don't know about the rest of you but I hate exams. Especially now that I have to apply for university! And I only need to go up 2% in every subject but I want to go up at least 5 or more so that I can get a bursery.

Anyway! I need to study so my blogs will not be as frequent as they always are.
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Some more poems...


MEANING

I've got so many questions unanswered
so many things i want to understand

If we were born to die
yet we all die to live

if we must receive to give
and give to receive

if time is real
but slips through our fingers

why are we alive?

SINKING
Why make me walk the plank on a sinking ship
So that i drown or get eaten?
You think your setting me free, but your killing me

I'd rather stay in your arms
go down with this ship
and die a happy women

no regrets..
don't make me walk

Good bye All!