Pain of loss

Last Friday and old friend of mine passed away. He was 21. A young man, that has barely had time to live, barely had time to experience all the tings he had planned. And I was left standing here wondering why these things have to happen? Why someone so young had to go... So many questions? And no one to answer them.

Living life like each second will be your last is hard. Especially with some idiots that we are forced to live with! But in the end thats the only way to live.

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Time

Time well spent
Time to vent
Time with friends
Then time with the 'rents

Like a ticking bomb
In my mind, where is it coming from?
Like the sands in an hour glass
And a precious vase

Such is the time we have on this earth
And how much is that even worth?
We can’t buy it
Can’t sell it...

Death controls our fate
No matter how much you love or hate
Your end will come...
For all, not just some...

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With love
E-bitch

*Friendly greeting*

Hey friends, sory that Ive been neglecting my blog! Grade 12 is one long, crazy year! to all who wandered this is how i looked for the Matric farewell (prom)

Hope that in the new year there will be enough time for blogging!
Love
E-bitch

LONG TIME!!!

Hey guys! Been A long time since you've heard of me hay?! Its been such a long and busy year and I have had so much to do that I've been neglecting my blog

I'm looking for hairstyles for my Matric farewell or as the American's would call it my 'Prom"
Let me know what you think?
To the side?

 Or...... In a bun

Enjoy the rest of your August!
love
E-Bitch

A story of a boy

A murder of crows and a nightmare of ravens. A night of days and day of nights, on this dark day there was a boy. He had ran away from home and he was wandering the streets of a deserted ghost town in the middle of nowhere.

His mind-crowded with thoughts and regrets-noticed a raven perched on a sign reading... "home". As soon as their eyes met, the raven flew away. Having nowhere to go the boy followed the bird. He was lead into a corn field. He was not really giving anything much thought and just continued on the path the raven had set out. As if to taunt the boy, the raven would sit and wait when the boy was too far. But as soon as the boy was close enough the bird would begin to fly again further and further into the corn field. After almost an hour of walking the boy got tired and sat on a rock next to the road. The raven came and sat across from him on the pathway. 

'Who are you?' the boy asked. With an obvious silence the boy looked away and started again...

'Do you want to know why I'm here? I killed the love of my life.' After uttering those last few words the boys eyes started tearing up.

'She was my all, and I killed her. She was sick you see... She couldn't control her emotions and got sad and depressive quickly. Two nights ago we had a fight, she said things, I said things and then I left. I made her cry and then walked out', he pleaded whiping tears from his eyes.

As if sensing that the boy was upset the bird came closer and then he continued. 

'I came home an hour later having calmed down and found her hanging from the tree outside our house. I killed her, She was my all and I killed her!' The raven flew away and the boy got up wiped away his tears and followed.

Yet another hour of silence had passed when the bird finally stopped. But what the boy saw made him fall to his knees. a tree with a girl hanging from it. his soul mate, the reason he had ran was in front of his eyes yet again with a crow on her shoulder. 

'Why!'  He cried out. The raven had disappeared and the crow came closer to the boy as he sat crying. eventually the crow was close enough to touch and when the boy reached out the crow came to sit on his shoulder. Then with a cold breeze the boy heard a whisper. 

'Its not your fault my love, I've always loved you but I'm in a better place now, I will always look after you. keep this crow and you will always have me with you.

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Hope you all enjoyed my story!

lots of love 

E-bitch

The Dark Side

I'm the type of girl who like the dark side of life, I am a Christian but I've always been interested in the other side of life. For every good there is bad and for every happy there is sad. Right?

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A virtue lost

And so with the unity

Of innocence and malevolence

I was brought into the vicinity

My animate absence

Is watching, Waiting...

Preparing, Anticipating...

So that I can take vengeance

For all the pain and suffering

That from this day on will commence

Due to the actions of one being...

An eye for an eye

A breath for a breath

No one cheats death 

When death returns the favour


Smile,breath
Yes, breath deeply....
Think of me
I'm 6 feet under


Staring at you,
you cant see me
but my bloody face
is staring at your fucked up smile!


Keep smiling,
keep breathing
I'm here to take you to hell.
Yes baby you see me now?


Look at my bloody face!
Scream,breath...
Whose smiling now?
I'm taking you to hell baby!


One last breath...
Look at my bloody face
You turned me into this angel
The angel of death

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If the world were to end today would you be ready? 

If God knocked on your door would you be ashamed of your deeds?If the Zombie Apocalypse were to come did you accomplish everything you set out for your day?

If death showed up at your house would you be proud of your life?

No matter what your beliefs are, always make sure your going to sleep knowing you did your best in the day you left behind! Always live like this day will be your last.

I wish you all a wicked June! 
love 
E-bitch!

pOEtRy by Dark Rain

Over It

I'm lying here in darkness
crying under the night sky
'cos you never really cared about me
you didn't even try

as the night goes on forever
my heart fades away
I'm lying here dying
'cos you left me this way

so now times standing still
the day will never end
I'll remain this way forever
'cos you were never a true friend

my life will never be the same
now that your out of my heart
we will never be lovers,we will never be friends
and now my life will never restart

so now I'm still crying
feeling miserable about love
words cant describe how i feel
and that's the truth,nothing of the above

these are just some words
to try and make you understand what I'm going through
there's nothing more you could do to hurt me
I'm sorry to say, I'm over and done with you


Lost In Darkness

you left me by myself
in the dark all alone
where no one could me
in the great unknown

there's no sign of light here
and there's no sound
no matter how loud i called
my screams were never found

but in the darkness
I saw a light coming near
it felt that things were getting better
because of the sounds i could hear

but no matter how much i struggled
the darkness was too strong
it seemed your voice was fading
and all at once the light was gone

I felt pain through my body
and saw my life passing by
I couldn't tell what was happening
but it felt as if I'm about to die

i was losing grip
and started to run out of breathe
my worst nightmare was finally coming true
my nightmare of death


Shawn

fuck you you asshole
you never loved me
you played on my heart
but now we're history

so fuck all our memories
they're all down the drain
fuck all your stupid lies
I'm tired of this pain

I have no idea why
I loved you anyway
you fucking broke my heart
when you broke up with me on Saturday

and you fucking don't want to commit
but you already found a new girlfriend
boy, I fucking want to kick your ass
and shove your cock up your rear end

you fucking make me angry
telling me that we're not meant for each other
but now I regret my fucking mistake
ever considering you were my lover

but it doesn't fucking matter any more
our love is over,dead and gone
now I've finally realised
that you were never the one


A Not So Perfect Story

there use to be a girl
with the perfect life
something went wrong
it ended with a knife

she had the world on her shoulders
but it eventually broke her back
her body lies cold on the bedroom floor
I'm sorry,there's no bring her back

there use to be a boy
with the perfect life
something went wrong
the moment she picked up that knife

he cried almost every night for her
said things like ''I miss you, come back"
but her souls not here any more
I'm sorry, there's no bringing her back

her body is gone forever
her reasons remain unknown
weren't there any warning signs
surely they would've shown

he spends almost every day
sitting there by her grave
placing black roses on the tombstone
for the girl he could never save


Expectations

the expectations are never met
disappointment consumes you
as if time just slows down
the world somehow seems untrue

I just don't belong here
but I don't know where to go
I cant show you my emotion
I'm just left hollow

is there something wrong with me?
everything I touch turns to dust
I'm contemplating suicide
as if knowing this is a must

hear me because I'm screaming
but your walking the  wrong way
I know you think its nothing
but I'm begging, I'm not okay

I'm just an empty vessel
passing through this barren place
with blood streaming down my wrists
and black tears running down my face

don't leave me with expectations
if you know they'll never come true
all it does is give me false hope
and a false impression of you



These are all about past heartbreaks and challenges faced. Hope all of you enjoy them.


love
Dark Rain

One For the GUYS

ORGASMIC

A gasp for air

Clench my fists

Grab your hair

My heartbeat races

Time slows

A build up of indescribable pleasure

Until the uncontrollable urge is at the point of no return

Then a sudden explosion of which there is no measure

Of sweet desire, bliss and satisfaction

Is released

It’s A reaction

Expected but immeasurable

And I’m left with a pounding heart

And a lustful need

For more and more

Of your sexual seed

I'm not saying anything about that poem... Its pretty self explanatory...

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BOOBS!

Girls have them,

Guys want them,

Lets rate them!

A-  Almost boobs

B-  Barely boobs

C-  Can DO! ------->me

D-  DAMN

DD-DOUBLE DAMN!!!!!!

F-   Fake

Quote from a guy

            "I want a girl with a lot of heart... Especially the big, juggly, round hearts!" 

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ASS ASS ASS!

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<--- RAnDom!!!!

NEVER DO DRUGS! THEY MAKE YOU SEE SHIT AND LOOK LIKE A FOOL! Unless Your Batman, he IS A fucking DRUG!

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 And that my fellow bloggers... Is All from me.... FOR NOW!

 PS: NO! I'm not high, drunk or sexually frustrated!
I'm just RANdom As ShiT!

BYE FRIEND

Love

E-bitch

Shitty Friends

So this month is almost over and its weekend. To be honest I've sort of been dreading this weekend, you see... It all started 3 years ago when I met this one girl. Megz. She was so funny, random and awesome! We instantly became best friends, then something really horrible happened to me... 
-I will tell all of you about it another day... I havnt built up the courage to tell someone verry close to me yet and once I do Ill tell all of you.-


So anyway something happened. And I trusted my friend so much that she was the first one to know. I asked for her help, she gave me advise and I took it. the next weekend I went to her house and out of the blue, her mother asked about it... I wasn't very happy that she told her mom but I was relieved that I could talk about it to an adult. So we spoke and she tried to help. But not even a week after that, a boy who lived close to me came to me and asked if it were true. I denied it of course. Knowing that Megz was the only one I told I was immediately angry! I approached her about it, she denied telling anyone other than her mother and I guess I wanted to believe her so I did. It wasn't very long that I started hearing it from a lot of people! Thankfully it all faded and I was left in pieces to heal, with out a friend to help and support me because obliviously she wasn't worth a friends ass. 
So that was the beginning of the end of our friendship. 
Things between us started getting better and our friendship started healing. Needless to say I haven't told her any secrets. 
And then...


Last weekend one of her hook-ups came to me and he asked if it was true that me and her had Lesbian sex!  Now I ask you... what type of friend would say that to some guy she basicly just met?! Who would make up such utter Bullshit? Was it just to make herself look good? I don't understand it... really I don't. 


So now here I am. this is the End of our friendship. She is coming over this weekend and I'm going to put it in plain simple English for her. My true inner Bitch will come out! With friends like that who needs enemies? Id rather tell her to Fuck off and go fuck another guy and tell the world whatever she wishes.  Just a few more months and I'm out of this place and ill never have to look at her Pathetic face again!




So I've learnt my lesson.


    A friend hears the song of your heart and sings it when memory fades.
She doesn't sing her own song even louder.


    A true friend never gets in your way, unless you happen to be going down
She doesn't push you down to pull herself up


    A friend believes in you even when you don't believe in yourself
She doesn't hope for you to fail


Always be careful who you trust. some people aren't who they say


And If you have a true friend who is there in the light and the dark, who is always the perfect shoulder to cry on and who will give her last breath to save you... Then your a lucky Bitch! 




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I wrote this poem last week. 
Its not about what happened to me, just a random poem. Hope all of you like it.

Mistakes 

A sweet breeze blows

My thoughts collapse

And the world knows

I rise to all my mistakes

Fall for the smallest bump

I wish I could shout it all out

Get out of this dump

That is my life

Sometimes I see a light

But it always ends up being a car’s light beam

Shining in my face so bright

Trying to drive over me

Wish I could just run away

But I’ve got to face the world

And hope one day

They can all see

The little girl behind the tree

That saw things

That she can never unsee

The one who could stop

All that has come to be

From that one mistake

And now she’s on one knee

Begging the lord

To go back to that tree

And unsee

What has come to be

Her only plea...

Love
E-Bitch

Life scares me

I've gone so far
but haven't moved
done so much
yet haven't accomplished anything

Been there
done that...
was I?
have I?

So much to live for
so much to fear
so much love
so much pain...
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Sometimes I think I'm the only one in the world that has problems and issues.then i look around and notice all the broken people... And I think... Do they know their not alone? We all have problems. Some bigger than others and we all handle them differently. I bottle mine up and write sad, depressing, angry -or however I feel- poems,some people cut themselves, others take it out on the ones they love.

To think next year I'm on my own... There's so many things I don't know, so many things I've got to learn... So much to do and say... And it feels like the more I do, the more there's left to be done.. Like I'm moving one step forward and two steps back... It feels like I'm going nowhere very slowly and its not even a smooth road, Its bumpy and has ups and downs and challenges everywhere! But that's life I guess and I've just got to hold on and wish for the best.

On the brighter side I've gotten accepted into my first choice university! So next year I move away from my parents and into my own life. Wish me luck... I'm going to need it!
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Well anyway! That's all from me for today! Enjoy your weekend guys...
Expect a few changes on my blog. I am a person who gets bored easily so I change quite often. Hope no one has a problem with that... If you do, please feel free to e-mail me about it so that I can tell you to fuck off!

Love
E-bitch!

Blood, Life and Me

Lust for blood

I SEE BLOOD

ALL OVER THE FLOOR

ON MY HANDS...

I WANNA SEE MORE

MORE PAIN

MORE AGONY

MY LUST FOR BLOOD

I WANT TO BE...

THE LAST THING YOU SEE

MY EMOTIONLESS FACE

MY IMORTAL SOUL

MY TEETH SINKS INTO YOUR FLESH

YOUR BODY WITHERED AND BROKEN

TAINTED, VIOLATED AND SHAKEN

UNTIL A NEW VAMPIRE HAS WOKEN...

Hello everyone!!!!!!

I'm Marlene.... But you can call me Dark Rain

Its 2012 baby and if the world does end lets make this year count

how ironic...Basically spent my whole life in school

SHIT!!!!!!!











Hope you all enjoyed your March. I know I didn't.
It all started with a bang and it seems to be ending with a sizzle. Rather than starting with a sizzle and ending with a bang like I wanted. School is going full speed ahead but my mind is being dragged behind trying to catch up! But I'm sure ill get there and get that bang that I want. No pun intended!


Anyways! I've got to get back to my homework... That's my mind trying to catch up again!


LOVE
E-bitch

Complications

So one thing I haven't mentioned yet is that I change my mind regularly. So my blog wont look the same for long. I like changing it up!

Life as a teen sucks sometimes, I mean you have to keep your parents happy, do well in school, find out what you want to be one day( which isn't as easy as it seems). It all gets to be a bit much sometimes...

do this
and that
be like this
aim at that

give it your all
don't give up
why did you fall?
get up!

why aren't you like her?
work harder
do better
go faster

its all up to you
your life
what are you going to do?

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Hope you all had an amazing valentines day, enjoy march!
Love
E-bitch

Bad Day much?

How can it be?
every one surrounding my soul
Is as happy as can be
yet I stand here
broken and batted

Things torn apart
In this life that is mine
And an aching heart
shouting for some relief

No end in sight
All I can see
Is yet another fight

Lord help me
Set me free

before I jump..

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So my day started with my alarm going off way to early meaning when i actually had to wake up it felt like I only had an hour of sleep. Then my sister had a go at making a shitty start even worse.(she got it right). on the way to school my boyfriend and I had a fight over the phone. At school the teachers decided that today was the perfect day to shout and take their frustrations out on the class. On the way home my mom just had to start a fight about my school marks not being good enough.

So i guess it wasn't exactly the 'best' day ever.

Well that's me...
love E-bitch

Awesome Random Photo's

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I love butterflies... Their so colourful and pretty and I think the reason why I love them so much is because I wish that I could fly

I want a tattoo of a Rose either on my foot or my thigh. I love roses they make me smile and the smell of a rose drives me mad! Its just that amazing 

I love, love! Don't get me wrong its frustrating and hard! But it will always be there... And it requires constant attention but somehow... If its true... It will come out stronger and make you happier. I am lucky to have this kind of love. And people may call me crazy or think that it wont last but we made it to a year and 11 months.and we will have many more. With hard work, love and trust I'm sure that all things will work out...

I love hot bodies! =P

I hate bullshit and lies! I get irritated really quickly and my stupid blackberry is so damn slow that I'm surprised that it hasn't met my wall yet!

Ahhh friends! They make your day worthwhile and fun! I have one really close friend. Dark Rain which you all have met before. She says hello by the way!

Now you all know me a little better! I'm just some random girl! Who wants to rule the world one day

Love E-bitch